Jun
14
Renewing my Efforts in the Blogosphere
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To all my loyal readers, I’d like to apologize for the length of time I have been absent from the blogosphere. While I’d like to have you believe my time has been consumed by other worthy ventures, I cannot accept such undue credit. Certainly, schoolwork and extracurricular activities have been very time consuming, but I am afraid my absence from this blog has been primarily out of spiritual neglect.
It has been a devastating thing to look back upon all my past reflections and wonder how I could have ever written any of it. It has also been devastating to realize how much time and opportunity I have wasted in my spiritual life since I began my freshman year at Franciscan University in the fall of 2008. This past year, my experience has taught me the danger of replacing my relationship to almighty God with rubrics and guidelines about spirituality. This is not to say I have found such rubrics and guidelines to be useless. Quite the contrary! But to the extent that I have made them an end to themselves, my spiritual life has become more and more inconsistent and less and less personal.
And what a loss it is when you allow your spiritual life to be stunted! What a disaster when you can look back and know for certain you have lost something precious! But that is what sin does; that is the doom of an undisciplined life. If I ever had any doubts before, I no longer do. I praise and thank God for this realization at last – I praise him for his faithfulness and the grace of resolution. He is truly the model of love – faithful in spite of my infidelity; patient in spite of my impatience; caring in spite of my neglect! What a wonderful God we serve! What a Love He has for us – a love that endures forever!
Starting today, I have resolved to spend more time here; to make sure I write a reflection at least once a week. This is not a new resolution. It is one I have made more than a few times since I began this blog, but I renew it with faith and trust that God can work even in my failure, and that even if I should fail to live up to such a resolution during times of restlessness, He will provide me the graces I need to acknowledge my humanity and strive to do better in the future.
It is my prayer today that the Lord might bless this work and all the people who witness it. May their lives be transformed just as mine is being transformed even now in a never-ending conversion to the limitless ocean of God’s mercy and love.
Amen.
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